A Time Alone..'My Time"

Its been a while since i last updated my blog. My life isn't as sweet as a box of chocolate. It had turned bitter along the way. The heartache and downfall of my life happened at the same time and took so much of me. So much...

Ever since, I didn't have the courage to move on but still life has to go on whether I like it or not. In a way, I thanked that particular person who were in my life for a short while. He changed the way I look at things and life especially. I cherished my moments with him which made me whole. I am really grateful for what he made me see. If not for him, I may continue making the same mistakes over again. After he left, the whole prospective of my life changed. Its been six months since I last met him. I began to realize I missed so much in life. I wasted my 27 years looking for something I wasn't sure of. Yes I have a stable job compliments with several failed relationships. As I was busy trying to find happiness I missed out something important. However God gave me chance to make it up again. Yes I lost someone and at the same time I settle something important to me. Now safe and happy.

From then on, I lost that particular person but I guess it was for the best. He made me see what I lost all the while. Myself. I have forgotten myself. I was too busy looking for happiness I forgot about ME. Now I am able to find time to discover and get to know myself better. I guess being alone is not bad after all. Based on the article I have read yesterday 'Do You Spend Enough Time Alone?", I realised there are so much thing to do. Here's some incepts of the article I would like to share:

a. Self Discovery: Spending time alone gives you the ability to discover things about yourself and to get a real understanding of who you are. We have grown to appreciate the art of getting to know others, but in reality, it is even more important to get to know ourselves, our preferences, our likes and dislikes without other people’s influences.

b. Higher Sense of Independence and Increased Self-Esteem: Being alone and getting comfortable with being alone gives you a higher sense of independence. Relying on yourself to make choices and decisions increases your self confidence, which then permeates other aspects of your life, including the times you are in the presence of others.

c. No Need to Compromise: Often, we compromise when we are in the presence of others. We usually work with one another to reach agreement on everything, from what we will have for dinner to what TV show to watch. Spending time alone allows you to indulge yourself with the things you want to do and the things you love, without any negotiation.

d. Rejuvenation for Your Soul: Getting away from others allows you to decompress and relax. It gives you a break from the have tos and allows you to focus on the want tos. It lets you address your own needs as opposed to everyone elses and gives you the opportunity to rejuvenate and push the ‘restart’ button.

e. A Fresh Perspective: Time alone gives you the opportunity to clear your mind and to weed through a lot of thoughts. This allows you to get to the heart of what YOU really think as opposed to being told or influenced by others and their opinions. It gives you time to reflect on what is important in your life and how you feel about every day situations that need to be addressed.

f. Higher Appreciation for Those You Love: Giving yourself the ability to be alone allows you to have a greater appreciation for the time you spend with others. If you never have time for yourself, you’ll wish you did. It is important to find some balance in this; but once you do, you’ll enjoy your relationships even more.

I have done a few things before I discover this article. Trying to get on my feet again. Life gets much better as I have so much freedom now in life. Life isn't about only ME. There so much things in life I need to discover and every little things that happen was planned by the "BIG GUY" up there. Men?? Relationships?? Forget that... Let the "BIG GUY" do his part. I had ENOUGH... I love my freedom now.

What I want to now with my financial freedom, TO BUY MY DREAM HOUSE!!! Still looking around but not rushing :) need to save more before I can get a place I call HOME. Definitely I am happy now and I need to STAND UP AND MOVE ON!!...

To that someone, you know who you are.... THANK YOU FOR WAKING ME UP FROM MY FANTASY, I AM FOREVER GRATEFUL, LOVE YOU.. STILL AND ALWAYS....